I feel weird

I just got sad for some reason. I dunno why. Maybe its because its only the 3rd week of school and I'm already close to pulling an all nighter. I don't feel that bad though because I only got the book last Thursday and I've done kinda good at reading. I have to write a 2-3 page response paper on this book we were supposed to have read and I've only got about half done. I'm going to do the paper and then read as much as I can tonight, then I'll read as much as I can before class tomorrow at 4. We'll see how it goes. I'm not panicing though and I'm going to try to stay that way. I'll just work diligently. I wonder if I'm in the right major,am I doing the right thing? Did I mess up too much the past few years? Ya I'm sure everything will get worked out in the end, but what if its the wrong ending? What if I was supposed to be walking down a different path than the one I'm currently on? Do you know?...nah, didn't think so. I wonder why I started feeling like this? Chemical imbalance? Who knows. I don't. This is a prrreeetttyyy lame entry isn't it? But you should feel lucky, normally I never express this gooey mushy stuff to you all, but I just felt like it tonight, so there. Happy New Year. I'm gunna try to bust this paper out now. It will be pretty difficult, "What were the major political, social and economic changes in Britain between 1714 and 2008? What political, social and economic themes persisted throughout this period?"...If you figure it out, let me know for sure! I'll leave you with some Showbread lyrics that just popped up on my ipod that sorta explain how I feel now, but not all the way, I'm not THAT dramatic. "Whisper something to me so I can hear your voice I’m pushing you away, my will be done, it is my choice You sing to me in inky black with tendrils flailing wildly Yet I remain in solid stone, no force on earth will move me Why does it seem that all is slipping further from me? I build and build and reaching up my arms can not reach anything Give me something, anything Why is it bleak and barren Don’t I deserve the world after building building building? You dangle happiness before me yet keep it out of reach My well is dry and still I try to fill it up I seek and seek and seek Nothing lasts except the empty swallowing my soul But I will rise above this world and I will fill my holes"

g'nite folks.

hey, how does that song go?

well shoot, where are my manners? its been too long song i've written you all. well let's see what new with me? i am now using firefox instead of IE because i've determined that IE sucks. about two hours ago i had this crazy headache. it hurt when i was laying down so i got up and now it feels better..maybe the asprin is kicking in. i know i always talked about school kicking my butt last semester, but man, this semester, school is really going to kick me in the high-knee. i've just got so much reading to do. i really want to exceed this semester and prove to myself that i can actually be successful once i put my mind to something. ive never been completely proud of the work that i've done in college. that includes everything from band to RAing and school. i want to change that and i've made progress, at least in my RAing. for the first time i've made a bulletin board that came out exactly how i imagined it and awfully proud of it. i know it may not seem like much, and it may not even be that important, but i think it shows that i'm making progress. it all started with me wanting to not suck anymore and getting COMPLETELY organized before school even started. i've basically been thinking about how i can be more successful and how to change this for the better, and so far, i've done it. of course there are still many things for me to work on, especially my report with my residents, although its been pretty strong with some of them, there's still some that i really need to get to know better. my goal is to be more of a presence in the apartments this semester. i feel like that can be kind of hard since the apartments are more spread out, but i'm going to try. and i guess lastly, the most important thing is school. i'm already a bit behind in reading and i cannot let the reading pile up on me like it did last semester. if i don't do the reading i will not pass my classes, so, i plan on doing the reading so that i can not only pass my classes, but exceed in them. i think i'm making progress and hopefully i can keep up all my hard work and in the end, be proud of the work i've done. lets see, what else have i been doing? GOLF, yes, golf. i love golf. i wish that i could play everyday. the problem is that its very expensive during the winter, i'm not sure why, but the price literally doubles so its hard to play often, plus school and work gets in the way. oh, and i hurt my wrist somehow. oh well. tomorrow is my birthday and i can't really do much. i've got school all day and tons of reading, and a staff meeting at night. should be fun! that's ok, i'm sure it will still be a fun day. that's it for now kids, i'm tired. i apologize for any mispellings/missing words/gibberish, writing while being tired and watching star wars at the same time is difficult.


love,

dan

ps-i'm gunna try to write once a day so all of my adoring fan(s) can know what's going on. pce.