One can only tolerate so much..

before they give up. I feel like I'm at that point with my job. When people ask me about being an RA, I tell them that it is a very inconvenient job. Because truth is, it is. There are tons of things that get in the way of real life, like bulletin boards, making sure residents are doing well, programs, staff meetings, desk duty, duty and other stuff that you are required to attend to. But I now understand how I've been able to deal with it all the past year and a half. I can tolerate it, or at least I could. No, I won't say that I can't anymore, because I'm not going to give up, but I'm getting close and I know that I won't be an RA next year. See, in the beginning you are all excited for the job and what lies ahead but then school, friends, family, fun, other junk get in the way of the pretty picture you had painted about how the job would pan out. The very successful RAs are able to balance these things, they are able to tolerate the inconveniences of duty, residents knocking on your door at 3:30 AM locked out. If you want to stay sane in this job(and be successful) you have to give up alot and accept that the job will be annoying. It will be frustrating and inconvenient. If you can do that, then the job is actually a pretty rewarding job. And I think that I've learned alot. I've learned how valuable good time management is. I've learned that I have to do things that I just absolutely do NOT want to do because its a part of my job. I've also learned the value of getting a head start on things. I am definitely glad that I took this job, but I think I'm ready to move on. I may have messed up a lot and it hasn't been what I expected, but I've learned alot from it and hopefully I've made a difference in someone's life. I guess I'm saying all this because lately, I've been unbelievably annoyed with this job and I guess I needed to let you know that. I hope you're happy. Anyways, moving on...I'm concerned about the future. What comes after college? I'd say grad school is, but my GPA is so sucky that I doubt I'll get in anywhere, plus I'm not even sure I want to dedicate another two years to school. Things would be alot easier if I took school more seriously in my tenure here at FAU. Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on how bad the past was, I'm going to be like Lewis from "Meet the Robinsons" and "keep moving forward." OK, that may have been the dumbest/cheesiest thing I've EVER written. In my entire life,lol. I've had a headache since last night and it kept my out of school today. It was POUNDING and I couldn't get out of bed. I went to the doctor and he said my throat was really red so I'm probably getting sick so he gave me a Z-pack to hopefully prevent any further sickness. I hope my headache goes away soon though. Its not as bad as it was, but its still annoying. My mom told me that my niece can say her name now. That makes my heart melt,lol. I can't wait until she says MY name. I'll cry,lol. No I won't...well maybe. Maybe I'll get to see her over Spring Break if not, I hope I do something awesome! Like golfing at Disney for a few days or something super duper awesome like that. So I want to live off campus after this semester but since I don't think I can go back to having a roommate, I need a cheap 1 room apt or a studio that's not outrageously expensive. I wonder if those exist,lol. Alrighty, I'm going to go try and find something to eat and then start reading. Good night peeps.

Love,

Dan