I'm in class...

and Word isn't working for some reason so I'll write to you (while listening to my teacher lecture on the decline of the Ottoman Empire). I'm very very happy that the weekend is here. This week was one of the most stressful weeks I've had in awhile. It started out awesome, for like, 4 hours. I was being productive, getting ahead of my school, only to realize that I had a draft of a paper due two days later. The syllabus wasn't clear and I missed class on Thursday so I didn't know. I found out on Sunday night. That would have been fine, I could have crapped out a draft by Tuesday, buuuuutt, NONE of the books I needed for this paper were in the library! They were all checked out! So I had to write a paper, but I had no way of doing it! So I spoke with my teacher and she gave me an extension to next Tuesday, which is fantastic. I was able to give her a focus for my paper on Thursday and two of the books I needed just got returned to the library, so I'm happy about that! I also had two programs this week, one on Monday, which no one came to =(. And one yesterday that was fairly successful. It was an Easter egg hunt and it was alot of fun. I also presented my FARH program at RSA on Wednesday. Oh ya! I had a test on Thursday in Holocaust. I hate that class The grading is SUPER duper hard. I describe it as they grade the essays like a multiple choice test. Usually teachers will give you some credit if you have an idea on what you are saying, but in this class, if you don't give them the exact answer they want, you get it wrong. So that sucks! Did I already say that I'm happy its the weekend? Even though I have to work my butt off to finish my History of Mexico paper, its just nice knowing this painful week is over. I think I'm going to see...(sorry to interrupt, but my teacher just said "canary in a coal mine!" he was referring to the Ottomans should have known something was wrong. I bet no one in my class knew why he said that! Its because coal miners used to bring canaries into the mine because if the canary died, they knew that the air was not breathable. BOOM, knowledge bomb just dropped on you!...ok, back to your regularly scheduled blog) Clash of the Titans tonight with Cody, Kerri, and Katie. I can't wait to eat popcorn! MMM..I think I'm also going to Boca Wings and Ribs for Lunch with Cody and Kerri, and maybe Katie. Woo! Aaahhhh..the weekend. It's a beautiful day outside, great day for golf. Unfortunately I won't,lol. I'm excited about not being an RA anymore. I plan on writing a lengthy entry on my experience as an RA to look back and reminisce so to speak, but that won't be for awhile. I really want to live by myself, but I have no idea how thats going to happen. And I really need a job that pays well. I'm just not sure if Sunglass Hut can offer that, they probably won't even have hours for me. How are YOU guys doing? I hope you're doing well. I'm f'nna peace outa here and begin enjoying my weekend!

Love,
Dan

i want to blog every night

I feel like at the end of every day I have something to say. That is a poorly constructed sentence. What is that called again? It should be, I feel like I have something to say at the end of the day. I always end up writing about 4-5 fully loaded tweets. So tonight, I'm going to blog to you, I hope you like it. I already started on twitter, so I'm going to continue what I was saying there, if you don't understand, just go back to my two previous tweets! ...I left something in my room that I needed for my paper. It was the list of books I need to read for the paper. So I called my parents when I left because I always call them on Sunday. I ended up talking to them for about a half hour then got caught up watching TV and other stuff and before I knew it, it was 7:30. We were having a surprise party for someone on my staff at 8, so I decided that I'd stick around for that. So I got what I needed for my paper and left my room and headed to the MPR (run-on sentence?) I found out that the surprise-ee was running late, so I stayed to play a game of pool, I was going to leave after that. Then I won, then I won again, and again, and again! So there goes an hour, then its 9:00 and I found the surprise-ee is here, so I stay, sing and have cake. It was 9:30 then. I had to find more books for the paper. There goes another 20 minutes. It is now 10:13 PM and I started this paper writing process at 4:00 PM! Talk about distractions and life getting in the way of school. I am now going to start my paper and just do what I can. Hopefully I can get about a page to bring to my teacher tomorrow at 8:00AM. I'm also trying something very new that I've always wanted to do that could be very painful. I'm waking up at 6:00 AM to go to the gym with Ashley (my boss). He said he wanted to get back into it, and I'd like to start going again too...that's a joke because the last time I consistently went to the gym was summer of junior year of high school,lol. But now that I may have a work out partner I know that I can hopefully get into a good routine. At least all this stuff happened 3 weeks before the paper is due and not the week of. Although I know that if I don't stop getting interrupted that it'll be the day before the paper is due and I'll have nothing and be screwed. I want to finish this paper by the end of the week, which is completely possible, its a rather easy paper, and the more I let him read it, the better chance I have to get a good grade on it. Alrighty, I'm outa here! I have about an hour and half to get something productive done. And to think, this blog was only supposed to be short,lol. Goodnight err'body

Love,

Dan

nightly tweeta

BAWLICKYLICKY!!

Good evening children. It’s been awhile, I know and boy have I got a lot to tell you! So much so that I cannot even remember all of it so that’s it for this entry!...I keed I keed. Well lately things have been up and down, yes, like a roller coaster. School is hard and more recently, very disappointing. I failed a test that I thought I was prepared for. Now I’m in danger of failing it, which is a very, very bad thing. I’m going to go talk to my teacher on Friday though and see if there’s anyway I can pass. Also, paper writing season is starting. I have 4 papers due in a two week period or so, so I’ve REALLY got to get cracking on those. I’m going to try to get one of them completed by the end of the month, so that gives me….about a week, lol. I’m also pretty frustrated with my job. I worked REALLY hard on a program and no one came. Seriously, this was the best program that I’ve ever planned. Everything was so perfect. Also, special thanks to Katie and Kerri for helping because without them I wouldn’t have been able to pull it off, well the planning anyway. It was such an awesome and fun program, and it makes me sad that all the hard work that we put in was all for not. So much of me wants to give up. I’m tired of sucking and even when I think I’ve done enough to be prepared, I’m not. I’m not going to give up, because that’s just the way things go and I’ll just have to try harder. I guess this happens to everyone and they still make it. But still, its just a blow to your confidence and a bit disheartening when you try really hard and things don’t go as planned. OK, enough mourning, have to move on! And I have! I have two programs next week, a car maintenance program (educational) and an easter egg hunt! I made a flyer for the car maintenance program and I’m rather happy with it. Its one of the better flyers I’ve done. The program is called “Roll Out”..like the ludacris song. And the flyer says, “make sure your pimped out ride is maintained correctly!”..I rather like,lol. My Easter Egg hunt should be fun as well, it was pretty successful last year and I’m trying to make it even better this year. Hmm..what else has been going on. Last week I started reading old Myspace messages that people replied to my bulletins and stuff and I started reminiscing and kind of getting sad. I’m not sure why. I mean, these messages were like 4 years old! I guess it was just weird seeing those old things, because honestly , a lot of them were for bad things. There were a series of messages that I didn’t even remember about me not talking to my friend Lizzy (who was a very close friend of mine during senior year and after high school up until about sophomore year) because my ex-girlfriend didn’t want me to. Why did I do that?! Lol. I guess seeing things now makes me realize how silly that was, but also it reminded me that it was a pretty sucky part of life. I remember now that it was right when I moved to Lake City after I graduated high school. That was my stroll down memory lane today. Moving forward. I’m going to Disney this weekend for free! My staff did the Disney “Give a day, get a day” thing so we did Habitat for Humanity a couple months ago so we got free tickets to Disney. Sweet! That should be fun and I’m excited for it. But after that its nose to the grindstone for basically the rest of the semester! Papers, papers, papers and more papers will be written from now until finals. I’ll be really happy when this semester is over. I need a place to live! I’m excited about living off campus and I REALLY hope that I can live in a place all by myself. I wouldn’t mind living with someone, but there aren’t many people that I could stand living with,lol. It’s not them, its me. I just like to have my space. I like going home and not having anyone else there. I like going into my room and knowing that I can just lay down and no one is going to bother me,lol. Well, I think I’ve given you enough fat to chew over. Good day all

Love,
dan

One can only tolerate so much..

before they give up. I feel like I'm at that point with my job. When people ask me about being an RA, I tell them that it is a very inconvenient job. Because truth is, it is. There are tons of things that get in the way of real life, like bulletin boards, making sure residents are doing well, programs, staff meetings, desk duty, duty and other stuff that you are required to attend to. But I now understand how I've been able to deal with it all the past year and a half. I can tolerate it, or at least I could. No, I won't say that I can't anymore, because I'm not going to give up, but I'm getting close and I know that I won't be an RA next year. See, in the beginning you are all excited for the job and what lies ahead but then school, friends, family, fun, other junk get in the way of the pretty picture you had painted about how the job would pan out. The very successful RAs are able to balance these things, they are able to tolerate the inconveniences of duty, residents knocking on your door at 3:30 AM locked out. If you want to stay sane in this job(and be successful) you have to give up alot and accept that the job will be annoying. It will be frustrating and inconvenient. If you can do that, then the job is actually a pretty rewarding job. And I think that I've learned alot. I've learned how valuable good time management is. I've learned that I have to do things that I just absolutely do NOT want to do because its a part of my job. I've also learned the value of getting a head start on things. I am definitely glad that I took this job, but I think I'm ready to move on. I may have messed up a lot and it hasn't been what I expected, but I've learned alot from it and hopefully I've made a difference in someone's life. I guess I'm saying all this because lately, I've been unbelievably annoyed with this job and I guess I needed to let you know that. I hope you're happy. Anyways, moving on...I'm concerned about the future. What comes after college? I'd say grad school is, but my GPA is so sucky that I doubt I'll get in anywhere, plus I'm not even sure I want to dedicate another two years to school. Things would be alot easier if I took school more seriously in my tenure here at FAU. Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on how bad the past was, I'm going to be like Lewis from "Meet the Robinsons" and "keep moving forward." OK, that may have been the dumbest/cheesiest thing I've EVER written. In my entire life,lol. I've had a headache since last night and it kept my out of school today. It was POUNDING and I couldn't get out of bed. I went to the doctor and he said my throat was really red so I'm probably getting sick so he gave me a Z-pack to hopefully prevent any further sickness. I hope my headache goes away soon though. Its not as bad as it was, but its still annoying. My mom told me that my niece can say her name now. That makes my heart melt,lol. I can't wait until she says MY name. I'll cry,lol. No I won't...well maybe. Maybe I'll get to see her over Spring Break if not, I hope I do something awesome! Like golfing at Disney for a few days or something super duper awesome like that. So I want to live off campus after this semester but since I don't think I can go back to having a roommate, I need a cheap 1 room apt or a studio that's not outrageously expensive. I wonder if those exist,lol. Alrighty, I'm going to go try and find something to eat and then start reading. Good night peeps.

Love,

Dan

I feel weird

I just got sad for some reason. I dunno why. Maybe its because its only the 3rd week of school and I'm already close to pulling an all nighter. I don't feel that bad though because I only got the book last Thursday and I've done kinda good at reading. I have to write a 2-3 page response paper on this book we were supposed to have read and I've only got about half done. I'm going to do the paper and then read as much as I can tonight, then I'll read as much as I can before class tomorrow at 4. We'll see how it goes. I'm not panicing though and I'm going to try to stay that way. I'll just work diligently. I wonder if I'm in the right major,am I doing the right thing? Did I mess up too much the past few years? Ya I'm sure everything will get worked out in the end, but what if its the wrong ending? What if I was supposed to be walking down a different path than the one I'm currently on? Do you know?...nah, didn't think so. I wonder why I started feeling like this? Chemical imbalance? Who knows. I don't. This is a prrreeetttyyy lame entry isn't it? But you should feel lucky, normally I never express this gooey mushy stuff to you all, but I just felt like it tonight, so there. Happy New Year. I'm gunna try to bust this paper out now. It will be pretty difficult, "What were the major political, social and economic changes in Britain between 1714 and 2008? What political, social and economic themes persisted throughout this period?"...If you figure it out, let me know for sure! I'll leave you with some Showbread lyrics that just popped up on my ipod that sorta explain how I feel now, but not all the way, I'm not THAT dramatic. "Whisper something to me so I can hear your voice I’m pushing you away, my will be done, it is my choice You sing to me in inky black with tendrils flailing wildly Yet I remain in solid stone, no force on earth will move me Why does it seem that all is slipping further from me? I build and build and reaching up my arms can not reach anything Give me something, anything Why is it bleak and barren Don’t I deserve the world after building building building? You dangle happiness before me yet keep it out of reach My well is dry and still I try to fill it up I seek and seek and seek Nothing lasts except the empty swallowing my soul But I will rise above this world and I will fill my holes"

g'nite folks.

hey, how does that song go?

well shoot, where are my manners? its been too long song i've written you all. well let's see what new with me? i am now using firefox instead of IE because i've determined that IE sucks. about two hours ago i had this crazy headache. it hurt when i was laying down so i got up and now it feels better..maybe the asprin is kicking in. i know i always talked about school kicking my butt last semester, but man, this semester, school is really going to kick me in the high-knee. i've just got so much reading to do. i really want to exceed this semester and prove to myself that i can actually be successful once i put my mind to something. ive never been completely proud of the work that i've done in college. that includes everything from band to RAing and school. i want to change that and i've made progress, at least in my RAing. for the first time i've made a bulletin board that came out exactly how i imagined it and awfully proud of it. i know it may not seem like much, and it may not even be that important, but i think it shows that i'm making progress. it all started with me wanting to not suck anymore and getting COMPLETELY organized before school even started. i've basically been thinking about how i can be more successful and how to change this for the better, and so far, i've done it. of course there are still many things for me to work on, especially my report with my residents, although its been pretty strong with some of them, there's still some that i really need to get to know better. my goal is to be more of a presence in the apartments this semester. i feel like that can be kind of hard since the apartments are more spread out, but i'm going to try. and i guess lastly, the most important thing is school. i'm already a bit behind in reading and i cannot let the reading pile up on me like it did last semester. if i don't do the reading i will not pass my classes, so, i plan on doing the reading so that i can not only pass my classes, but exceed in them. i think i'm making progress and hopefully i can keep up all my hard work and in the end, be proud of the work i've done. lets see, what else have i been doing? GOLF, yes, golf. i love golf. i wish that i could play everyday. the problem is that its very expensive during the winter, i'm not sure why, but the price literally doubles so its hard to play often, plus school and work gets in the way. oh, and i hurt my wrist somehow. oh well. tomorrow is my birthday and i can't really do much. i've got school all day and tons of reading, and a staff meeting at night. should be fun! that's ok, i'm sure it will still be a fun day. that's it for now kids, i'm tired. i apologize for any mispellings/missing words/gibberish, writing while being tired and watching star wars at the same time is difficult.


love,

dan

ps-i'm gunna try to write once a day so all of my adoring fan(s) can know what's going on. pce.