decisions decisions

I've been thinking about grad school alot lately, mainly West Virginia. I went on their Dept. of History website and looked at the requirements to get into their grad school. You need a 3.0 in history courses and like 1000 on GRE's. I figured it out that if I get an A in every class for my last two semesters (spring and summer) I can raise my GPA in history classes up to a 3.2 actually, which is awesome, but the likelyhood of that happening are slim to none. I mean, maybe a few A's, but not ALL A's. I'm not even sure I'm going to pass Reformation Europe and Introduction to Historical Studies. I'm concerned about those two. I just really have to devote myself to those classes. I KNOW I can get an A in my Jefferson and Jackson class, I just have to try. I was also looking at the classes and stuff, and man, its a HECK of alot of work. I'm not sure I want to spend another two and half years in school, but imagine how much more knowledgeable I'd become. You also need 3 recommendation letters "who know your academic abilities." I have NO ONE who can write those. I never really talk to my teachers, that's mostly because I haven't been the best student. I can see maybe one of my teachers doing it. I just don't know. I've been thinking WVU because its in a historically rich state and its basically the exact opposite of Florida (cold and not flat as opposed to hot and flat). I'm tired of south Florida and I want some sort of difference. I want to know why everyone comes to south Florida. Is winter really THAT bad? I'd like to find out for myself. As you already know, I've been thinking about not being an RA next semester. I like being an RA, I just wish that I had a better relationship with my residents. I always see RAs in the dorms who are almost best friends with their residents. That's so hard to do in the apartments and I feel like everyone just thinks of me as a burden and annoying. If I was evaluating myself as an RA, I think I suck,lol. There's only one person who can change that, and thats me. I've got to change my study habits, get my butt to the library almost everyday, go around and talk to my residents more and be a better RA. Life seems kind of tough at the moment but I suppose its all works out in the end, I just don't see how it can at the moment. This might be the most depressing blog I've written since I had a Live Journal! Boy those were some sucky times, stupid too,lol. Well, I was stupid then, maybe the times weren't. I put my Christmas lights up around my room, they're nice and I enjoy them. I can't wait to get my Christmas tree! I love Christmas time. I wonder if my sister will be around then. She lives in Indiana now, thats far! It'd be nice to have the whole family together, thats always fun. Even though I don't really like going to mass with my dad, I always loved Christmas Eve mass because the whole family was there, it was usually pretty cold, we usually got pizza after and it was just a very pleasant time, and exciting knowing that I was going to get presents the next morning! Wow, if that's not the longest sentence I've ever written. I never write this late but I didn't feel like going to bed, even though I'm really tired. I just thought I'd write to you all. I hope you enjoyed it!

Shalom

Dan